Uplifting Nostalgia

These are some of my favorite classic Sesame Street clips:

Oh, and also,

I've just been thinking, 

if you end up being married now

it means you are a psychopath

because you lie flawlessly. 

I'm not scared, because my arms actually turn into guns.

Also, I have shoes with blades that come out the toe part. 

Point F.cking

In response to my request for a hang-out so soon after we hung out already

I am aware that my proposal makes me appear abrupt and full of hidden attachment issues.
It may be the case that I am lonely and socialize when I should value time by myself.
Do you not?
It may be the case that I use social situations as a way to escape from my important obligations like dishes, groceries, laundry. 
Please don't underestimate me, though. I am strong and 

can get through anything. 

even you leaving me. or losing interest. or lying. people do these things and if you show that you are a person that will be ok. I won't dwell. 

I am out for myself. I am out for myself. I am out for myself when it comes to that. 

I've found with new relationships, it's scary. Because everyone has shitty dads and everyone pretends they don't care.

Good show, suh! Good show. WELL done, son.

It fucks us all up and you will feel sorry for me because I will let you down. It's inevitable. 

(scene clip: Frasier riding his bike. Frasier learning to ride a bike.)

(lesson: stumble together movie clips? overall theme?)

You will let me down. And I'm ok with that. My expectations are too high.

But you could be the one! You could be the one I lower them for! For just a little bit I will lower my expectations (which are only high as a survival strategy) and be with you and we will fall in love! and we may or may not be together for ever. And either way it will be ok.

Just give me someone to be honest with. completely honest with my feelings all the time. teach me how to do this. 

and we will fall in love and we won't feel that way forever. and that's ok. it's ok. 
Or we may just have fun laughing and fucking and become good friends. 
Things will change. And one of us will have to say it out loud.

I will not die. And I won't hate you and spread all sorts of nastiness about you. At first I will hurt. But that's a natural part of the cycle of feelings. And I want to feel them all equally. To love a great deal hurts a great deal eventually. No one wants to get attached because nothing lasts forever anymore. 

love greatly. and lose it. lose it in a good way and then lose it in a bad way. it's ok. it's the cycle of feelings. you can't just ignore the bad ones, you have to indulge them.

Do what you want, always. Be fulfilled and enjoy yourself, always. Or else what's the fucking point.